I've spent more time running around LJ in the past few months than I have in the past 3 years. lol Ever since going back and re-reading the shoebox_project at the beginning of February, I have been reading MWPP fanfic just about nonstop. I adore, adore, ADORE Remus and Sirius and James and yes, even Peter as a marauder. But mostly I adore Remus and Sirius as much as ever. Seems like my love for HP won't go away. I used to read tons of fanfic back when I was in college...tried writing some myself as well. But I've always enjoyed reading it more than any joy I got out of writing and people reviewing mine. I had forgotten how many amazing writers are out there. Some of the fanfics I read are by far more moving than published works I've read. So much talent. It's mind-boggling. Sometimes I even catch myself reading pairings I would NEVER read just simply based on how fabulous the writing is.
Anyway, my point is, I really miss the HP fandom. For the most part, it was good to me. I miss the fun times I had making so many friends from all over the world who all adored HP as much as I did. None of the other fandoms I've been in ever came close to it. I really miss Rox a lot. She was so very special to me and always cared no matter how much my love of R/S drove her insane. lol
I just want to say, if anyone is even reading my LJ anymore (and I wouldn't blame you if you aren't, since I seriously NEVER update this thing) that I do miss you guys and I really do think back very fondly of it all. I made a lot of great friends and it occurred to me lately that I sort of just walked away from everything without even thinking it through. I mean it's obvious as it RECENTLY occurred to me that I sort of threw it away. I guess it started once I moved to Japan...but perhaps even before then. Japan was like a clean break from the past me and somehow the HP fandom got lost when I found the new me....
I love you guys. You know who you are. And even if no one responds, I hope you at least read this and can understand my feelings, even if it's a smidgen.